on being a jack of all trades
ever since i was a kid, i would go through these cycles where i would find something interesting, get super obsessive about it and then after a little while i'd drop it. i've lost count at the number of times i started a new project and would tell every single person about it. i mean i would talk their ears off and honestly it was the only thing i could think about. and then a few weeks (or days) later, i'd move onto the next shiny new thing. this continued on later in life and eventually i was diagnosed with adhd.
i always get into things with good intentions, telling myself 'this time will be different!' but the sad truth is that i have too many abandoned projects. it has taken me a long time to come to terms with this. sometimes i throw myself a pity party asking 'why can't i just do things, why can't i just commit! i'd be better at x thing by now if only i had stuck with it!!!' it's a bummer but it's also not all bad.
i do know how to do a bunch of random shit. like, i can make a 3D donut in blender. i can make you some pretty good coffee on my italian espresso machine that i spent way too much money on at the peak of quarantine. i can spot and name a few birds out in the world. i can make you a cute little pixel art drawing. the list goes on.
i do have fun every time i start something new but it's hard not to feel bad about my inconsistencies. i have to make a concerted effort to remember that anything new that i am learning is not wasted time. so if you struggle with this, remember this!!!! you're actively learning and engaging your brain. learning is COOL.
i'd like this place to be a sort of living document of the fun, new things that i get myself into. i already know that one of these days i will stop writing this blog and that's okay. but then who knows! i'll get a second wind and start it up again. it will ebb and flow just like my interest in any given thing.
xoxo catdad